Today, well I guess technically yesterday, November 6th was the day I was first presented with this Unexpected Cancer Challenge. At a business reception, felt weak in my gut, and passed out hitting my head, went to the ER for “observation”, had blood tests, they lead to more blood tests, saw one Doc, then another, and that continued… after many hours of this I asked one of the ER Docs “…I’ve got a big work week ahead, am I going to be outta here by Sunday night”, to which he replied gently “you’re not going back to work on Monday”.
4 years ago my priorities were very much on motion, working and playing constantly, but when this Challenge was presented to me I “adjusted the bar” and let them go. And I can say with great honesty that in the past many weeks I feel as though I have a similar mindset as I once did on this day 4 years ago… too much work, too much motion, not enough down time, not enough balance.
All summer I ran into people consistently and it seemed that everyone assumed I was always crazy busy, I’m sure it has a lot to do with people knowing me better than I know myself, as I do love to be busy, making things happen. But that isn’t how my summer was at all, I was very focused on recharging, rebuilding, resting and playing… work was present but it wasn’t the top priority. That has changed in the past month or two and I’ve had enough of that.
I love my work, in fact it doesn’t quite feel right calling it work most times… most times. And the past many weeks have been mixed with the favourite and not so favourite parts of my “work”. But the past many weeks have also been filled with much too much of both, and I need to slow down.
I’ve known for quite some time that awareness is one of my greatest struggles, as once I’m aware of an issue I’m pretty good at dealing with it. So I have recognized that while I had a very relaxing summer and rebuilt quite significantly, I’m quite quickly wearing away much of that foundation and I need to re-focus on balance, taking it easy and getting my health back up there as top priority. As if there’s one lesson I’ve learned in the past 4 years it is that balance is one of the most important things in life, and when you have found your own version of balance, everything in life in enhanced.
So at 1:11 a.m. I’m going to stop making a liar out of myself and go to bed.
4 years in, it’s been a wild road with many amazing Challenges and triumphs, been great to share them with you to this point, and look forward to sharing them with you as I continue my journey… one step at a time, with the love and support of my family and friends, and with as much Positive Attitude as I have in me.
Live life. Love life.